Not just another pretty place...

So, yes, interior design is my latest and greatest but there have been so many years leading up to this decision of spending what little free time I have on going back to college! I am the proud mom of three beautiful and delightful young ladies (yes I said delightful..and yes having girls can be the most amazing experience if are up for a bit of a challenge! I wouldn't trade it for the world) I've been married for 13 years and have been with him for 14. It seems like my life life was never without him...he makes me smile and laugh almost every day of these last 14 years of my life. When asked what most attracted me to him first I always say hands down his sense of humor! God knows I've needed some of that...we've needed some of that in our lives in the last couple of years! Our girls are 8, 9 and 11 1/2. When my 8 year old was born I had more serious complications than I can really remember but what took place for a couple of years after that was far worse...I began to really think about how fragile life was and how it could be taken in a moment! It kinda freaked me out so after struggling for a couple of years with irrational fears I remember sitting across the table from my husbands friend who also struggled at times with somewhat irrational fears too and he said Amy you're creative and your mind is finding things to be creative about (my fears) and so he said just give your mind something else to be creative about...bingo! That was it...I new I had always loved design and it was creative and I could just let myself go and think up big ideas and it wasn't going to leave me freaking out about irrational fears...but instead I knew I would be getting a feeling of accomplishment with every step I got closer to my degree and then every room or home or business I could leave my handprint on! It has been an crazy amazing journey through school these last four years during which my husband decided to jump and free fall into starting his own business in the worst economy EVER, while raising 3 little girls who themselves are school age with tons of projects, my dads untimely and quite unexpected death and then all the mess that goes along with that! But somehow I've managed to stay the course and pour myself into something creative, something that let's my mind wander to someplace good and not extreme and irrational, something that will eventually pay for all our little girls college and weddings. So I continue to walk out this journey and see where it takes me. I'm praying that it will one day be even more than a career I want to not only make just another pretty place but I want to be able to use it to give back to other people. I'm not sure how that will all work out but I have lots of thoughts whirling through my mind as to the possibilities...like I said earlier...I'm creative so a million thoughts at once is not impossible for my mind! That's it for now...goodnight